+ SPACED OUT SISSY +

HEARING: "Love in the stars" by The Cherry Orchard
IN THE MOOD FOR: A purple lava lamp and a burning sandalwood incense stick..

Thesis, Boring Classes, a sarcastic, balding, son-of-a-gun teacher and an empty wallet.. haha.. my days are spent with these things running my lonesome sick cycle carousel. haha.. I'm turning Indie again. I havent blogged for the same reason as before. Ive nothing to write and am ashamed to make detailed blog entries cause it will reveal my not so picture perfect life.. haha.. I'm fucked up again but am trying my best to go against the bull. for the past few days, i never thought that i'm capable of doing certain things.. never felt more responsible.. (And after ive just said that am fucked up..)hehe.. im torn between my idle habbits and my leadership.. but I'm still up and kicking so I guess i'm ok.. for now.. and by the way, I dropped the acting stint for the feature film.. its not working for me.. gotta prioritize. "I'M NOT AWARE OF TOO MANY THINGS. I KNOW WHAT I KNOW IF YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN.. PHILOSOPHY.. IS THE TALK ON A CEREAL BOX; RELIGION.. IS THE SMILE ON A DOLL.." Fare-dee-well for now :-)

XOXOXO  ¶ 12:33 AM

  “ STARS”

I am gonna star in a feature Indie Film.. “The Wedding of the Century” Directed by an American Independent Filmmaker from New Jersey, It is bound to be shown here in The Philippines come December and in New Jersey and will compete in an art film Festival here and abroad. Haha.. Astig!! I have been tactless lately.. I told Chris, an intern that she looks like Alex Mack (she started to look at her clothes and started to pipe down.) and I also told this half French girl in school that I’ve heard somewhere that French people stink. ( I’f youre French and you’re reading this, no offense. I just heard this somewhere. ) I have been a walking punch line, gone wrong.. I think I need to tame this loose mouth to save my ass from getting kicked. Our Thesis is makin my head spin.. lots of stuff left undone. Ive been a multi- tasking person from Day one since we lack man power. I’m so busy and I must admit.. Im not used to this.. hehe.. a loafer in the real world.. definitely culture shocked. I’m gonna watch Harry potter after Lunch. Kittie’s classes will start tomorrow. Matagal ulit before we see each other. Eh kahit when she’s home, we hardly get to go out kasi kung hindi tulog, she’s doing something else. Nakakapikon lalo na if ive something to share or I wanna invite her to go out kasi wala akong kasama pero am used to it. She’s still my bestfriend and weve been thru almost everything together and am happy to have her around. Not so near but not that far.. ( Cheeseball!! )“A FRIEND IS SOMEONE WHO PUTS UP WITH ALL YOUR BUD’S CRAP AND ACCEPT” neway, fare-dee-well for now!!

XOXOXO

+ WHY DOES IT ALWAYS RAIN ON ME? +
Travis

I can't sleep tonight
Everybody saying everything's alright
Still I can't close my eyes
I'm seeing a tunnel at the end of all these lights

Sunny days
Where have you gone?
I get the strangest feeling you belong
Why does it always rain on me?
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me?
Even when the sun is shining
I can't avoid the lightning

I can't stand myself
I'm being held up by an invisible man
Still life on a shelf when
I got my mind on something else

Sunny days
Where have you gone?
I get the strangest feeling you belong
Why does it always rain on me?
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me?
Even when the sun is shining
I can't avoid the lightning

Oh, where did the blue skies go?
And why is it raining so?
It's so cold
I can't sleep tonight
Everybody's saying everything's all right
Still I can't close my eyes
I'm seeing a tunnel at the end of the lights

Sunny days
Where have you gone?
I get the strangest feeling you belong
Why does it always rain on me?
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Even when the sun is shining
I can't avoid the lightning
Oh, where did the blue skies go?
And why is it raining so?
It's so cold
Why does it always rain on me?
Why does it always rain on....











  ¶ 8:26 AM

  + SEE MY BLUE SIDE +

Hearing: "Daisy Duke"
Am in the mood for: butterfinger ice cream and a person to save me from absolute boredom.

I'm bluer than blue. literally cos am wearin all blue today. doesnt have anything to do with the weather.. i just dont have anything to wear. got this shirt from the stinky hamper cos i was running late for school kanina. No choice. Vic was looking for a Television to watch the NBA and spliff had to go home.. everyone's gone someplace and I envy them cos am staying here in school til 9pm for the 1st day rehearsal. at least i have my discman with me today. i just had my bmath test. it was hard considering the fact that i was absent that time when Mr. Jimenez taught the new lesson. so i contended with self-taught-learning and i hope i did well on the friggin quiz. I was smoking at chowking earlier and just stared at the peeps there. that was not my idea of a monday morning beacause usually, my chowking bish sessions are spent talking and hanging with the SEC boys or wih Nina Glorioso and MJ. This day bites.. am just gonna wait for other things to happen so i can finally declare that this day officialy sucks. but its still early to say that.. the thoughts of an idle boy :-)I miss Incense banter sessions with Cecile,Manolo,kittie,Cherrycola and Jo.. (No, we dont do joints.. we just sit in a circle with an incense stick burning while we catch up on our lonesome lives and smoke.) it may seem dull and pathetic but these are just one of the many absurd things that we do. if you think am crazy wait til you meet my friends!! neway am running late for class again. gotta split. fare-dee-well.

XOXOXO  ¶ 11:14 AM

  + BYE HARRY, HELLO ROONEY +

Just came home from town.. we were suppose to watch "Harry Potter and the prisoner of azkaban" but the tickets were sold out so me, my sister and my mom just walked around. I bought a Rooney CD!! hehe.. astig yung songs. (FYI: The the rocker dude named Michael Moscovits; Mia's love interest in the movie, "The Princess Diaries" is Robert Carmine also known as Schwartzman, the vocalist/guitarist of Rooney.)Rooney flirts with 60's pop/surf rock with a bit of jagged punk tendencies. Swanky and fit for a good spin on the stereo :-)It's raining hard outside and I need a smoke. Kittie is missing in action once again. fare-dee-well!!

XOXOXO

+ I'M A TERRIBLE PERSON +
Rooney

I'm A Terrible Person
Cause I've made up my mind
I'm a terrible person
Cause I've led her on
And I'm the only one who knows what I've done to her
I'm much smarter now
I won't tell her friends before her
It's gonna be a bad day come Sunday
It's gonna be a bad day come Sunday
I'm a terrible person
I read her diary
I'm not to be trusted
I told all of her secrets to all the guys in town
They all laugh and slap me five
Luckily she doesn't have dirt on me
Cause I'm the cleanest guy
I'm afraid
I don't think I'll ever be sorry
No I'm not sorry for a thing I've done
And I don't think I'll ever wake up lonely
Cause having her around wasn't all that special





  ¶ 5:35 PM

  + JONATHAN PLAYS "GAD" +

Hehe.. I'm playing Gad.. one of the brothers in "Joseph and the amazing technicolor dreamcoat" the last auditions went really well. people bursting with talent left us all in awe. I just dont like it when "Ms. A" our director, typecasts every goodlooking guy as Joseph. Kasi dati, she's basing it on the voice quality and their acting capabilities but now, she's acting like Kuya Germs na when youre guapo, you have what it takes.. talent or no talent.. youre in. There's this guy who auditioned.. he's the son of a well known celeb. I dont Like him. He has this air that he's always entitled. Too sure of himself. all he did was make pa-cute to Ms. A and to the other girls.. well, he got Joseph's part. haha.. bahala sila. 7 more weeks to go.. lets see if this guy is worth it. I dont even like his attitude. tangina. buti pa yung ibang "Joseph" understudy.. they deserve it. I know I sound bitter but I'm not sour graping at all. Its just that, I dont think he deserves it.. not just because i dont like him. Stage presence is not enough. This other dude, a joseph alternate, was my classmate on one of my english classes.. he was very good! he sang really well hence, he got Joseph's role. He deserves it. wish us luck as the ego clashing starts.. monday: 1st rehearsals.. Gah!! I have to endure the long waiting, late nights and early morning classes the following day. *Cringe* fare-dee-well.

XOXOXO  ¶ 12:47 PM

  + FEELIN' ARTISTIC +

I feel kinda artistic today so, here's my way of expressing some of my deepest thoughts in a not so detailed manner yet accessible to all. I Compiled excerpts from great songs and edited some of it and arranged it in an Art Credo form :-) hope it draws inspiration. here it goes..

" A river of silver plum thoughts"
(Jonathan's Art Credo)

Ophelia drowned in the water
Crushed by her own weight
Hitler loved little blue eyed boys
And it drove him to hate
Birds always grow silent before the night descends
Cause nature has a funny way of breaking what does not bend..


You can't kill my spirit
It's soaring and it's strong
Like a mountain
I'll go on and on..
But when my wings are folded
The brightly colored moth
Blends into the dirt into the ground..

I'm siphoning gass from the high school bus
Into the tank of my beat-up bug
So I can drive away from the shouting and misery
I drive into the night, to the hill, to the water tower
To lie on my back and drink in the meteor shower
Knowing that many men have lain as i do now
Ptolemy,Copernicus,Carl Jung
Pondering his existence,pondering,
Is God with me now?

You never minded giving us the stars
Then showing us how blind and unaware of You we are
You painted me a picture and showed me how to see
Though I just won't behold it
Unless it pertains to me..

Maybe next time
You'll be Henry the 8th
Wake up tomorrow, Alexander the great..
Open your eyes in a new life again.
Oh maybe next time,
You'll be given a chance.
Hush, hush, hush..

Dont compromise yourself.. youre all that youve got.
you only get what you give. innocence can't be lost.. it just needs to be maintained. sleep, sleep, sleep.. says the hundredth sheep. every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end.

Amen.

XOXOXO







  ¶ 10:16 AM

  + HAAAAYYYYY +

Ive changed the center pic.. this pic was taken during a gradeschool reunion at Joie's place. I was beside Kittie when this pic was taken and we were both drunk and sabog.. alcohol intake was more than what our body could handle at that time. Pareho kasi kaming problemado. I heard this somewhere.. and it is a good advice, we just dont have control over it.. " Don't Drink when youre sad cos it will make things worse.. Drink when youre happy because even if you get a hang-over the following day, at least you were happy and you were celebrating. not drowning in misery." I kinda edited that already but the message is still the same :-)hope you like the lay-out. I will improve on this when I find the time.. I was listening to Jars of clay last night and this song really hit me. read (or sing if you know how it goes)hehe.. eto na. fare-dee-well for now.

XOXOXO

+ NO ONE LOVES ME LIKE YOU +
Jars of clay

Collapsing was much softer
Still falling always hurt
Only after sensing your love
For always ever burned

(Jonathan: my fave part)

You justified my folly
My affluent disguise
Removed revealing nothing
Yet nothing unforgiven lies
Unforgiven lies

No one loves me like you
No one loves me the way you do
No one loves me like you
No one loves me the way, the way that you do

To touch the rose unfearful
Is to meet the thorn
And pierce the heart's emotion
And feel the emptiness no more
Emptiness no more

Took some time to realize I've fallen.


  ¶ 10:49 PM

  + GAH!! +

Hearing: "No one loves me like you"- Jars of clay

Anthony, my thesis mate just told me about a racket. I dunno if the Talent fee is big but as long as its above minimum, works for me!! Cause im really broke right now.. but under extreme circumstances, i had to drop it. I had to prioritize. ( I sound just like my dad..) Riz came to visit me in school. I miss that bitch :-) hehe.. she's been one of the few people in school that I consider real. she grew her hair long and I must admit, she looks prettier that way. my feet still hurts and thank God for sneakers. I texted Kittie if she wanna watch Shrek 2 pero she didnt reply.. sleeping or she doesnt have load.. either of the two. so when i got home, i changed into my boxers lang then I fell asleep and woke up around 9pm. All the while, Yaya Josie thought that I was over at Manolo's. I wore my new Royal purple STP racing shirt today. its been a while since Ive worn a purple shirt in school. Looking at my black hedgren backpack,I reminisced about my regular college days and how my bag stood witness through all those awkward years. dami na kaming pinagdaanan nung bag na yon :-)I checked on my friends' grad pics and Karla and Ace's pics were missing.. must have dropped it somewhere or pinuslit yun ni Precious.I wanna buy a K-hon. and oh.. I wish someone would buy na my DM's.. hehe.. (nagpaparinig ako)seeing the frosh peeps, dressed up in their greenhills stylish glory, it made me smile. I was looking at them to pacify their egos. so young and naive.. mahaba- haba pa ang stay nyo mga chong.. enjoy the ride. I know I did :-)fare-dee-well.  ¶ 11:05 PM